Que Sera, Sera ♥

love, i give up.

i just can’t grasp my hand on this thing called love. i need to be me, and yet i want to be the ‘me’ that you love. i didn’t used to think, didn’t used to worry. i don’t know how/why things turned out like this. i’ve really lost faith, in this thing called love. to me, its just an excuse to invade someone else’s life, take away any differences in personality the both of you have, and to completely turn that person into a carbon copy of you. seriously, what is the point of doing that? you say u will never change for the sake of someone. you are you, and i respect that, have i not? but do you respect who i am? you say you thought we were very alike, from the beginning, and i guess that’s how we got so far, but have you ever stop to ponder, perhaps we do have our differences? so i guess, it’s up to you to decide whether you are willing to accept this version of me, someone who can’t be exactly like you, who can’t not care abt every single thing, someone who can’t help but care about birthdays, valentine’s day, sweet nothings and presents. someone who wishes you would just be a lil different to her, as compared to how you treat everyone else. someone who wishes you would hold her hand when she’s having a hard time (physically and emotionally) someone who wishes you wouldn’t judge her just because she blew her top ONCE. someone who wishes you would hug her and kiss her and tell her you love her just out of the blue. someone who wishes you could compromise who you are by just a lil, an inch, a millimeter, to make her happier, because that’s what she would do for you. i am only human. i have feelings and though i admit i’m a lot less sensitive and demanding than most girls, i have my moments of weaknesses. i don’t know, am i asking too much? officially. jaded.